She: Mak Tam, ada tak suggestion buku yang sesuai untuk saya baca untuk persediaan kahwin?
Me: Hmm.. ada ke ek. Buku Aku Terima Nikahnya ada la.. hehe.. Buku lain macam tak ada yang related je. Dah cuba tengok library kat depan tu? Awak nak buku fiqh ke atau related to mental and emotional?
She: Lebih kepada nak prepare mental kot. Secara psikologi la.
Lalu kami pun berborak la pasal ni. Mak tam pun tak tau lah. I just shared from pengalaman. Marriage is really a subjective topic. There is no right or wrong. All are experiments. But you can always learn from people's experiences. It might works for you, it might not.
The conversation suddenly hit something deep inside of me. Rasa sebak. Rasa sayu.
Macamana kalau tiba-tiba anak mama yang tanya soalan-soalan macam ni? Am I ready? (My anak sedara ni pun umur sebaya humaira maisara)
Bila fikir macam tu, tiba-tiba perasaan tu macam bercampur baur.. Rasa macam nak anxiety pun ada. Huhu...
Cerita kat husband. Dia suruh start buat usrah dengan budak2 ni pasal topic ni.
Ah.. see... i still call them budak2.. Calon pun takde lagi (so far la.. or as far as I know)
Huhuhu... Am I ready?