July 31, 2026

Lisan

Haritu kuliah Ustaz Zulkifli cerita pasal wanita dambaan syurga.

Ustaz ada cerita. Dia kata mak dia tak banyak cakap, tak banyak sembang. Cakap bila perlu je. Ustaz kata semoga ia boleh jadi asbab mak dia masuk syurga. Kurang bercakap = kurang salah cakap, kurang menyakiti hati orang.

Kita kan dah biasa dimomokkan dengan wanita = banyak cakap, suka membebel, suka berleter, kuota perkataan 1 hari yang luar biasa banyak. 

Tapi sebenarnya tak semua macam tu.

Saya pun dalam family saya boleh dikatakan semua jenis pendiam. Jenis tak banyak cakap. Jenis tak pandai bercakap. Kalau berkumpul ramai-ramai sekeluarga yang paling banyak cakap ialah ipar-ipar. Bukanlah kami tak bercakap langsung tapi lebih kepada sembang-sembang. Dia beza tau bersembang dengan bercerita. Yang suka bercerita ni kadang orang yang dengar nak menyelit pun tak boleh haha. Tapi kami suka je dengar orang bercerita. Pastu kami jadi tukang gelak or tukang tanya hehe..

Mungkin sebab arwah bak pun jenis pendiam. Mak pun bukan jenis yang berleter sangat. Tapi abg alim kata dah tua-tua ni mak suka berleter. hehe.. tak tau lah.

Lain pulak dengan keluarga suami. Lagi pulak kalau depa dah start cakap kedah haha... Bayangkan betapa culture shock nya saya bila mak pak mertua mula tinggal dengan kami. Saya rasa anak-anak saya pun culture shock jugak kot hehe. Tapi dah lama-lama ok lah. Tapi kadang-kadang rasa serabut jugak hehe.

Kadang-kadang rasa kelakar pun ada. Saya baru nampak in real life la macamana isteri berleter kat suami. Bila dok bertekak pak ngan mak mertua, kami yang pening kepala. Tapi lepas bertekak tu mak mertua tetap sediakan makan pak mertua, duduk temankan makan. Tu yang rasa kelakar kadang-kadang tu tengok orang tua bergaduh hehe.. Pastu pulak pak mertua suka tengok tv dengar youtube lagu-lagu lama. Mak mertua pulak suka dengar nasyid/zikir kat radio ikim. Dah berlawan sapa volume kuat. Pastu bila nak bercakap dah kena menjerit-jerit pulak tak dengar.. Aduhaii.. nak tergelak je tengok kerenah.

Anak-anak pun tak terlepas juga. Salah sikit abis la kena berleteaq dgn nenek. Sabor je lah ya. Kalau dengan mama memang mama bukan jenis berleter. Kadang leter kat anak, mama pun panas telinga jugak rasa haha.. 

Macam tu lah ceritanya.. Takpelah jadikan sebagai hiburan. Raikan selagi masih ada.

My Blepharospasm Journey 6: Acupuncture

P/s - I tried to continue my blepharospasm journey story :)

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I went to acupuncture sessions after I had my surgery back in June 2021. I went to Pu Jian Chinese Medicine Center in Puchong. At first, it was to recover my health because of the after effect of my surgery. Then I also did sessions focusing on the eyelid muscle problem. I cannot see any obvious improvement on my eyes but it really helped me recover my overall health. My appetite had improved, my body felt stronger and my weight is back to the original weight. Overall, I have done roughly 8 sessions at this center. Oh I would not talk about the treatment cost.. erkk.. ( it was quite costly..)

Acupuncture involved needles to be inserted into under your skin. The idea is to stimulate the nerves around the problematic areas. At this center, the method used to diagnose the problem is by looking at the tongue and the check on the wrist pulse. 

Normally I do the whole body treatment and eyelid. During treatment, I could feel currents flowing through my body. Usually, I could still feel it even after I get home. And then my body felt tired that I would just sleep and rest for the remaining of the day. I was prescribed with chinese herbal medicine that I need to take orally every day. The taste was awful but I survived hehe.

After a few months I stopped going to Pu Jian as I felt that my body is gaining its original strength.

But my eyes still act the same.

Nevertheless, I was thankful. Alhamdulillah..



July 09, 2026

Reno Regrets

I should have sticked to my original idea.

What happens is that i trust the ID contractore more because my brain said I should listen to someone more knowledgable. But I forgot that the one who's gonna live in this house is me, not them. They are good at their work theoretically. But I am the one who's gonna live it.

These are some of my regrets. Well, not really a regret but it can be done better.

- not positioning the laundry at the side of the house where the sun exposure is the most optimal.
- positioning the sink and the window facing the neighbor's sideyard. I don't like the view. Also I feel that I am intruding their privacy. So I have put some plants right in front of the window. And I only pull up a fraction of the window blinds, even though the window is tinted (neighbour cannot see us). I should have position it facing the backyard.
- not leaving more space at the backyard for gardening.
- better space design with a separate conversational space. currently the living room/conversational space is also the TV area. In which my father in law is almost most of the time watching TV there. So..

But what can I do about it?

I just embrace it and adapt to it. 

We can only plan but we never know the realistic plan until we live in it, until we know the real flow.

Nevertheless... Alhamdulillah for everything. We have a spacious home. We are able to bring our parents to stay with us so that we can take care of them. Our girls have their en-suite bathroom. I have a large kitchen with big kitchen island.

Alhamdulillah...

Embrace and syukur..

I just wish that Allah will grant me with the most beautiful house in heaven. How? There is a hadith saying that if you pray 10/12 rakaat of solat sunat rawatib everyday, Allah will build a beautiful palace for you in heaven. (I will find the exact hadith later).

That is what I am currently trying to achieve. Still struggling, especially qabliah and ba'diah zuhur. Insya allah, may Allah give me the will and strength to do it.

When you think about Allah's promise, there is nothing in this world that can compare to that. So any lack, shortage or things you don't have in this world, just ask Allah to give them to you in heaven.  That is the best. Aim for that. But you need to work for it to ensure you go to heaven. So do what pleases Allah, leave things that displease Allah.

I am struggling but I am trying.

May Allah help us and give us the will.


June 28, 2026

Konsert Faizal Tahir

Faizal Tahir nak buat konsert Oktober ni? wah...

Saya pernah sembang-sembang dengan sapa tah tak ingat. Saya kata sapa artis yang kalau dia buat konsert saya nak pegi. Ya betul!.. Faizal Tahir! Tapi saya nak Faizal Tahir version yang dulu. Sebab sekarang dah tua suara dia dah tak energetic macam dulu hahaha... Tapi bila tengok promo konsert kali ni wah menarik song list dia yang dia dah reveal. Mahakarya Cinta, Karma. Sampai Syurga, Sejati. Alahai bestnya bestnya... Ok ni.. Kalau setakat lagu-lagu dia sekarang kureng sikit la.. yang style lagu-lagu rakyat tu.. Kita jiwa rock ahaks.. Tapi mampukah dia menyanyi balik lagu lama-lama dia tu? 

Gurau-gurau dengan husband, Abang takde dapat tiket free ke? Kan buat kat Unifi Arena :) Hehe.. Tak dilayannya kita..

But seriously, adakah saya akan pegi walau dapat tiket free?

Of course la tidak.. haha... dah tua la.. kena sedar diri hehe...