tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-97483772024-03-06T13:41:05.552+08:00CHeRiSH YouR LiFe!...mamasherry's ramblings..mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.comBlogger583125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-33479753876885917532023-11-17T10:14:00.002+08:002023-11-17T10:14:51.563+08:00My Blepharospasm Journey 5: The Treatment - Botulinum Toxin<p>In modern medicine, there is no cure for blepharospasm. But there are ways to manage the symptom. The most common one is the botulinum toxin injection. Ever heard of botox? People take botox injection for beauty purposes. But for blepharospasm patients, it is a live saver. Unfortunately, it is not the case for me.</p><p>Remember that blepharospasm means your eyelid muscle is too active that it squeezes a lot until you cannot open your eyelid in a normal way. So injecting botox around the eyelids will help to weaken the muscles around the eyes. After a few days, it will help the person to be able to open their eyes more comfortably. The botox effectiveness usually last for 3 months. Hence, after 3 months, the patient should take another shot. That is basically the lifecycle. So every 3 months, you need to see your doctor to have the injection. If your effectiveness last earlier that 3 months, you still need to wait until 3 months for the next shot to ensure that the botox has fully worn off from your body. </p><p>Now the problem is every person is not the same in terms of the amount of botox and the pattern of injection. The doctor must be very expert and experienced to guess the right pattern for the patients. Even so, there is no guarantee. So it is a trial and error. Based on my reading on the internet and support groups, there are people who are very lucky to get the positive result the first time. But mostly they found the right pattern after 2 or 3 times. There are also patients who waited until 5th time. But there are also patients who have tried many times and finally have to accept the fact that botox is not for them.</p><p>I think I am one of them. I have taken botox for 4 times. That is equivalent to one year period. (You can only retry after 3 months). Each time, my effectiveness only lasted for 1-2 weeks. My doctor said, there is no point to continue if it does not help me. So that is the end of me visiting my neurologist.</p><p>But I am still hopeful. There are other alternatives that I can try.</p>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-9898636496626835712023-08-29T17:57:00.000+08:002023-08-29T17:57:05.642+08:00Thankful<p>This is just a random ramblings. </p><p>I am just thankful.</p><p>Thankful to Allah for giving me my eyes problem (blepharospasm).</p><p>Thankful to Allah for giving me the cure after two years.</p><p>Thankful to Allah for giving me the unexpected rizq. Because of my illness, I leave my job with some compensation.</p><p>Thankful to Allah for inviting me to be His duyufurrahman (guest) and perform hajj this year.</p><p>Thankful to Allah because I was able to go to Hajj using the money that I get from my illness that Allah has tested me.</p><p>Thankful to Allah because my eyes are almost back to normal during hajj. I didn't face any difficulties performing my everyday routine.</p><p>Thankful to Allah because after returning from hajj, my eyes are getting better and better, now I can drive around my neighbourhood.</p><p>Ah.. can you see it? Allah's plan is the best plan.. </p><p>He gave me the test with roller coaster ride for 2 years, and in the end He gave me the prize of Hajj invitation. huhu..</p><p>If I am not thankful, I don't know what to say.</p><p><br /></p>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-50208658864379232442023-05-08T15:30:00.001+08:002023-08-29T17:38:32.540+08:00I have improved a lot!<p>Di saat saya kata saya nak start keluar join semula program taman, saya dipertemukan dgn ticernina, jiran yg buat rawatan bekam, urut, akupunture, refleksologi. Dia kata, meh dia cuba buat rawatan.</p><p>Di saat saya kata saya kena start teruskan hidup with the new condition, accept, adapt and jalan terus, Allah angkat sakit saya hingga 70% improvement! Subhanallah! Allah Maha Berkuasa atas segalanya... huhuhu..</p>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-75507305155083763582022-11-08T15:07:00.007+08:002022-11-08T15:17:01.377+08:00My Blepharospasm Journey 4: 2nd Opinion<p>Pada mulanya saya bercadang untuk mendapatkan second opinion di International Eye Specialist Center (ISEC) berdasarkan recommendation daripada Dr Saf, my ex-schoolmate who is an eye specialist. Dah appointment tapi selepas tu dapat recommendation daripada Abg Thor who is also an eye specialist in Unisza. (Sorry tak tau ejaan sebenar abd thor, tapi macam tu la bunyinya hehe). Abg Thor suruh ambik video of my eyes. Dia kata macam bukan blepharospasm. Untuk mengesahkan lagi, dia recommend untuk ke HKL jumpa neuro-ophtalmologist.</p><p>Saya jumpa Dr Nurul Ain di HKL. Dia pun kata macam bukan blepharospasm. Sebab mata saya tak spasm. Cuma nampak susah nak angkat kelopak mata. They called it droopy eyelids atau ptosis. Maybe because saya pun complain heaviness in the eyelids. Bukan spasm. Macam-macam test kena buat. Mula-mula buat test untuk vision.. rabun jauh, rabun dekat, rabun warna, dilation, tracking. So far ok. Then dr buat beberapa test untuk MG. Saya buat 'ice pack testing'. Letak ice kat mata. Kalau MG, sepatutnya lepas letak ice beberapa minit, mata akan boleh dibuka atau improve. Kemudian ambil darah. Tapi result darah kena tunggu next follow up. Saya juga kena ambil darah kat lab luar. Yang ni sebab nak buat test darah yang melibatkan immune system. Kenapa lab kat HKL tak boleh buat ya? saya lupa reason dia hehe. Nasib baik ada Lablink Medical Laboratory depan Hospital Tawakkal, tak jauh dari HKL. Boleh lah selesaikan dalam satu hari tu. </p><p>Selepas beberapa minggu, saya datang kembali untuk follow up. Semua test yang telah dibuat termasuk blood test menunjukkan tiada unsur-unsur penyakit yang melibatkan masalah immune atau antibodi. Jadi kemungkinan besar bukan MG. Dr Ayn mencadangkan untuk berbincang dan evaluate further dengan neurologist. Cuma beliau kata queue panjang di HKL. Beliau recommend untuk jumpa Prof Rabani di HUKM. </p><p>Di HUKM, mula-mula kami berjumpa Dr Chee Yong Chuan. Sewaktu saya menceritakan segala sejarah masalah saya, Prof Rabani pula join. Kami ulang lagi cerita. Kemudian Prof Rabani panggil seorang lagi doctor yang pakar dalam movement disorder, kalau tak silap namanya Dr Shahrul Azmin. Kena ulang balik medical history. Sampai Dr Chee tu pun dah hafal, dia yang terangkan kat Prof-Prof tu. Jadi kami dalam bilik tu macam sedang dalam meeting dengan doctor-doctor ni. Bayangkan tiga orang sekali yang cuba diagnose saya. Tapi yang paling bestnya, bila saya kata ini untuk dapatkan second opinion dan bila bagitau nama Neurologist saya ialah Prof Goh, mereka semua hands down. Mereka semua kenal Prof Goh. Mereka kata Prof Goh tu level sifu/otai neurologist kat Malaysia ni. Hehe.. mana la kami tau. Berani pulak kita mintak 2nd opinion kepada Prof Goh punya diagnosis ya.. hehhe.. Tapi doctors kat HUKM pun professional, tidaklah mereka terus setuju saja dengan Prof Goh. Tapi dalam sessi tu tak dapat kata putus. Mereka minta saya bagi MRI result dari UMSC, dan mereka akan bawa kes ini untuk perbincangan lanjut dalam neurology department. Mereka juga ambil video saya untuk dibincangkan.</p><p>Beberapa hari kemudian, saya dimaklumkan yang mereka setuju dengan diagnosis Blepharospasm. And they said that I can continue with Prof Goh, and that I am in a good hands. :) </p><p>Alhamdulillah saya terima diagnosis ini dan boleh focus kepada treatment untuk blepharospasm. Mungkin apa yang memeningkan doktor-doktor ialah tak nampak mata saya spasm atau twitching. Mata saya lebih kepada eyelid heaviness yang menyebabkan saya susah nak buka mata. Kenapa botox injection tak berkesan? Melalui pembacaan saya, ia memerlukan the right dosage and the right spots to inject. Dan setiap orang injection pattern dia tak sama. So kena trial and error. Lagi pulak kena tunggu 3 bulan baru boleh re-try balik. Saya ada join blepharospasm support group dalam Facebook. Banyak juga information dan pengalaman orang lain yang saya dapat. Ada yang kali ke 4 atau 5 baru dapat the right patterns. Ada juga yang memang botox injection not effective on them langsung. Jadi saya tak akan berputus asa. Saya akan teruskan lagi injection sehingga dapat the right pattern untuk saya, insya allah.</p><p>Injection saya yang ke-2 dan ke-3 pun masih tak beri improvement kepada saya. Dan semakin lama mata saya semakin susah nak buka mata. Kalau saya cuba buka mata menggunakan tangan, baru nampak spasm tu. Mata saya cuba melawan untuk tutup semula.</p><p>Dan kini baru saya akui kehebatan Prof Goh hehe. First time jumpa saya dia terus boleh diagnose dengan betul based on his obervation. Takde blood test, ice pack test. Dia cuma buat physical examination. Memang betul-betul otai. Subhanallah semuanya kurniaan Allah.. Tapi belum cukup otai sebab dia belum jumpa the right pattern untuk saya. Dan injection ini pun sebenarnya bukan cure, tetapi lebih kepada manage. Perlu diambil setiap 3 bulan. Semoga Allah permudahkan segalanya.</p><p>Sementara itu, saya juga cuba rawatan alternatif lain seperti rawatan islam, acupuncture, homopathy dan neuroplasticity. Saya harap rawatan alternatif boleh cure masalah saya ini. Insya allah...</p>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-90248756034972362342022-11-07T17:42:00.009+08:002022-11-08T13:42:36.299+08:00My Blepharospasm Journey 3: Myasthania Gravis atau Blepharospasm<p>Selepas surgeri, alhamdulillah mata kiri saya dah tak rasa berat lagi. Saya boleh buka mata seperti biasa. Namun selepas sebulan, saya mula merasa berat di kelopak mata kanan saya. Alamak, takkan jadi sebelah kanan pulak.</p><p>Semasa follow up appointment dengan Dr Faizal, kami berbincang tentang mata kanan saya. Beliau juga buka semula file MRI saya. Beliau kata sebelah kanan ok, tak ada looping salur darah yang menyentuh saraf seperti yang sebelah kanan. Beliau mula suspect Myastenia Gravis.</p><p><i><b style="caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Myasthenia gravis</b><span face="sans-serif" style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-size: 14px;"> (</span><b style="caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">MG</b><span face="sans-serif" style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-size: 14px;">) is a long-term </span><a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neuromuscular_junction_disease" style="background-image: none; color: #0b0080; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: none;" title="Neuromuscular junction disease">neuromuscular junction disease</a><span face="sans-serif" style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-size: 14px;"> that leads to varying degrees of skeletal </span><a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Muscle_weakness" style="background-image: none; color: #0b0080; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: none;" title="Muscle weakness">muscle weakness</a><span face="sans-serif" style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-size: 14px;">.</span><sup class="reference" id="cite_ref-NIH2016_1-7" style="caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 11.199999809265137px; line-height: 1; unicode-bidi: isolate; white-space: nowrap;"><a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Myasthenia_gravis#cite_note-NIH2016-1" style="background-image: none; color: #0b0080; text-decoration: none;">[1]</a></sup><span face="sans-serif" style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-size: 14px;"> The most commonly affected muscles are those of the </span><a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eye" style="background-image: none; color: #0b0080; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: none;" title="Eye">eyes</a><span face="sans-serif" style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-size: 14px;">, </span><a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Facial_muscles" style="background-image: none; color: #0b0080; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: none;" title="Facial muscles">face</a><span face="sans-serif" style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-size: 14px;">, and swallowing.</span><sup class="reference" id="cite_ref-NIH2016_1-8" style="caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 11.199999809265137px; line-height: 1; unicode-bidi: isolate; white-space: nowrap;"><a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Myasthenia_gravis#cite_note-NIH2016-1" style="background-image: none; color: #0b0080; text-decoration: none;">[1]</a></sup><span face="sans-serif" style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-size: 14px;"> It can result in </span><a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diplopia" style="background-image: none; color: #0b0080; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: none;" title="Diplopia">double vision</a><span face="sans-serif" style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-size: 14px;">, </span><a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ptosis_(eyelid)" style="background-image: none; color: #0b0080; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: none;" title="Ptosis (eyelid)">drooping eyelids</a><span face="sans-serif" style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(32, 33, 34); color: #202122; font-size: 14px;">, trouble talking, and trouble walking</span></i></p><p>(definition from wikipedia)</p><p>Kemudian Dr Faizal telah refer saya kepada Neurologist, Prof Goh Khean Jin.</p><p>Apabila berjumpa Prof Goh, beliau suspect keadaan saya sebagai Blepharospasm. Tapi beliau minta saya monitor lagi selama sebulan kerana mungkin juga keadaan ini adalah side effect daripada prosedur surgeri yang saya lalui.</p><p>Maka saya pun dapat sambung lagi MC selama sebulan. Dalam tempoh itu, vertigo saya semakin pulih, alhamdulillah. Telinga kiri saya semakin boleh dengar alhamdulillah, namun belum back to 100%. Telinga kiri saya ni, sebenarnya dia boleh dengan walaupun kurang sikit, tapi dia tak boleh capture apa orang cakap. Macam dengar radio rosak, macam tulah. Kalau kat tempat yang banyak bunyi atau background sound lagi la saya tak boleh tangkap apa orang cakap. Contohnya kat restoran kan kadang-kadang bising. Orang sebelah cakap pun saya tak boleh nak dengar. kalau dalam keadaan macam tu, telinga kiri saya macam tertutup. Apa-apa pun, alhamdulillah masih boleh dengar. </p><p>Selera makan saya juga semakin ok. Namun mata kanan saya semakin ketara susah nak buka. Dan yang menyedihkan ialah mata kiri saya juga kembali jadi berat dan susah nak buka. Jadi sekarang, dua-dua mata problem. </p><p>Selepas sebulan, kami jumpa Prof Goh semula. Selepas beberapa pemeriksaan, Prof Goh confirm saya ada blepharospasm.</p><p><span face=""Source Sans Pro", Roboto, sans-serif" style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(113, 113, 113);"><i><span><b>Blepharospasm</b> is a neurologic disorder affecting the muscles controlling your eyelids. It starts off as twitching and can progress to not being able to open your eyes. Injections help many people get relief. Advanced cases may require lifestyle changes due to limited vision.</span></i></span></p><p><i>(https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/21546-blepharospasm)</i></p><p>Penyakit ini tiada ubat, namun kita boleh control dengan botulinum toxin injection. Terus kami schedule untuk injection. Saya dapat the first injection pada bulan Sept 2021. Dalam masa seminggu, alhamdulillah mata saya kembali normal. Boleh buka besar. Happynya saya masa tu. Namun kegembiraan itu hanya sementara. Selepas seminggu happy, ia kembali menjadi sebelum ini. Dapatlah merasa nikmat melihat seperti biasa selama seminggu. Tapi injection tu hanya boleh buat 3 bulan sekali. Jadi kalau saya ambik injection pun hanya effective selama seminggu je. 2 bulan 3 minggu lagi saya perlu hadap masalah ini.</p><p>Waktu itu, kerja saya ke laut, study saya pun saya kena drop subject, Saya cuba jugaklah maintain 1 subject. Untuk kerja saya masih MC. Saya mula memikirkan untuk apply MBO. Sebab saya tak tau keadaan saya ni sampai bila. Kasihan juga kat bos. Dah la saya baru tukar kerja lepas tu MC lama. Saya mula berbincang dengan HR. Saya juga cuba yakinkan suami. Mula-mula suami keberatan. Dia minta saya apply unpaid leave saja. Tapi saya macam nak juga cuba apply MBO sebab lagipun saya rasa kerja sekarang pun semakin stress. Sebenarnya saya pun tak tau mana tindakan yang terbaik. Tapi saya teruskan juga isi borang MBO. Tiap hari saya doa kat Allah, kalau MBO tu yang terbaik untuk saya, approvekan lah. Kalau tak approve, maksudnya memang itu bukan untuk saya dan saya akan minta unpaid leave saja. </p><p>Berbincang dengan Prof Goh untuk dapatkan surat sokongan, beliau pun kata kes ni susah nak dapat MBO ni sebab ianya tidak melibatkan nyawa. Tapi saya rasa ada strong justification sebab kerja saya melibatkan computer. Memang directly affected. </p><p>Alhamdulillah, selepas melalui beberapa prosedur di pihak TM, akhirnya pada 1 Disember 2021, saya melepaskan jawatan saya di TM. Dalam keadaan yang masih PKP dan sebagainya, tak dapat lah saya berjumpa dengan officemate masa saya hantar passkad dan laptop saya pada 30 Nov. (Maisara escort saya pegi office). </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJ6gnP9bWZJFw0_1bmFPXH-9z1YIktcXbTnw8j9AEgf4UxzKYIz7pD5AMx7sGg-uizvRU5MVUDSL6Z3i9JSzikUL8cVedDEn4MhLb8W5OGChm-x09ZJY7cPT86XJtfmNc2s6dXQuN2xgljf2axmTWAply6LPt3thrc5FYMfZ_iY_jinTpugA/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202022-11-07%20at%2017.48.07.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="960" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJ6gnP9bWZJFw0_1bmFPXH-9z1YIktcXbTnw8j9AEgf4UxzKYIz7pD5AMx7sGg-uizvRU5MVUDSL6Z3i9JSzikUL8cVedDEn4MhLb8W5OGChm-x09ZJY7cPT86XJtfmNc2s6dXQuN2xgljf2axmTWAply6LPt3thrc5FYMfZ_iY_jinTpugA/w300-h400/WhatsApp%20Image%202022-11-07%20at%2017.48.07.jpeg" width="300" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiXRDfICLWtdxQIOko7KmV_BqcP0JlZTG0dpuFXZhTDKlSLOmGoP-vrpDtOOA79QpdIIE1JFOhzVY0l3S7556EyYpDEe7Nwigd2QuygkNwg4undL7CIjFERn-OJEF0fZH7IEbPEdxH_FPVJIU4283DQfLXqkgAnTxXG_xqImfxIJvN-9KlnQg/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202022-11-07%20at%2017.48.58.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="960" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiXRDfICLWtdxQIOko7KmV_BqcP0JlZTG0dpuFXZhTDKlSLOmGoP-vrpDtOOA79QpdIIE1JFOhzVY0l3S7556EyYpDEe7Nwigd2QuygkNwg4undL7CIjFERn-OJEF0fZH7IEbPEdxH_FPVJIU4283DQfLXqkgAnTxXG_xqImfxIJvN-9KlnQg/w300-h400/WhatsApp%20Image%202022-11-07%20at%2017.48.58.jpeg" width="300" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhthvFh42--MuEPb7g8qIJ0yxg5L1S9Y8xvCD5AMx053r-fbH-GtN95s5SNGvuoLLrpl6sVK4I-war-nVa_V0nvGw_EwCXO_FpprEwYMnhBxnDcdj2MczInoe9ofJk_Gvdp8IpGTfGvCw_euaQhCDSPZWSLCql5no7Y2LfgvhC16T5gy1hKDg/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202022-11-07%20at%2017.49.20.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="960" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhthvFh42--MuEPb7g8qIJ0yxg5L1S9Y8xvCD5AMx053r-fbH-GtN95s5SNGvuoLLrpl6sVK4I-war-nVa_V0nvGw_EwCXO_FpprEwYMnhBxnDcdj2MczInoe9ofJk_Gvdp8IpGTfGvCw_euaQhCDSPZWSLCql5no7Y2LfgvhC16T5gy1hKDg/w300-h400/WhatsApp%20Image%202022-11-07%20at%2017.49.20.jpeg" width="300" /></a></div><br /><p style="text-align: center;">(photo: last day in TM)</p><p style="text-align: center;"><br /></p><p>Sementara itu, bagaimana dengan keadaan saya ni? Botox injection nampaknya tak effective. Keluarga cadangkan saya pergi hospital lain for 2nd opinion.</p><p><br /></p>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-88245726853846220302022-11-02T10:59:00.001+08:002022-11-02T10:59:27.082+08:00Doa penerang hati ini rupa-rupanya doa yang sangat powerful<p>Sebenarnya saya dah lama nak share kisah ini namun asyik tertangguh. Mungkin ramai je yang dah tau, cuma saya je yang baru tau.</p><p>Saya pasti ramai yang dah hafal doa ini.</p><p></p><p><img alt="robbisrohli sodri wayassirli amri wahlul uqdatam millisani yafqahu qauli | Arab, Latin dan artinya - YouTube" class="rg_i Q4LuWd" data-ils="4" height="169" jsaction="rcuQ6b:trigger.M8vzZb;" jsname="Q4LuWd" src="https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQ06HxfDjYji4csK4qnv0FM1NdG9TBTmVcIQQ&usqp=CAU" style="-webkit-user-drag: auto; -webkit-user-select: text;" width="300" /></p>Sejak dari tadika atau sekolah rendah lagi kita diajar untuk baca doa ini sebelum mulakan pembelajaran dalam kelas. Pada saya, doa ni macam doa penerang hati la.. supaya dada kita lapang mudah ilmu nak masuk. Namun saya tak sedar betapa powerfulnya doa ini dan juga apa sejarah di sebalik doa ini.<p></p><p>Satu hari saya dengar ceramah Ustazah Asma Harun secara online. Masa tu dia buka sessi macam Tanyalah Ustazah gitulah. Beliau pick soalan secara random daripada ruangan komen. Soalan yang dipilih ialah macamana nak tegur orang supaya orang tu tak kecil hati. Lalu ustazah mencadangkan untuk baca doa ini.</p><p>Selama ini saya tau doa ini untuk terang hati mudah belajar dan mudah urusan. Saya pun rasa pelik. Rupa-rupanya doa ini adalah doa Nabi Musa ketika baginda diperintahkan oleh Allah untuk bersemuka dan menegur Firaun. Ianya telah diceritakan di dalam Surah Taha. Bayangkanlah Nabi Musa nak bertemu dengan Firaun yang sangat digeruni, yang sangat berkuasa dan seorang yang mengaku jadi Tuhan. Kalau kita pun mesti sangat takut. Nak jumpa pun takut apa lagi nak tegur. Rasa takut, kerdil, lemah semangat agaknya bila dapat perintah seperti itu. Sebab tu lah Nabi Musa baca doa ini supaya Allah bantu dia. </p><p>Lapangkan dadaku</p><p>- sebelum kita menegur orang, kita sendiri kena prepare diri kita. Lapangkan dada kita untuk menerima sebarang feedback, baik atau buruk. Orang mungkin akan marah, tak terima teguran kita. Jadi kita sendiri kena berlapang dada atas sebarang kemungkinan. Jangan orang melenting kita pun ikut melenting sebab orang tak terima apa kita cakap. Begitulah Nabi Musa A.S meminta Allah melapangkan dadanya sebagai persediaan untuk bertemu Firaun.</p><p>Mudahkan urusanku</p><p>- Secara umumnya kita mohon urusan kita dipermudahkan</p><p>Lepaskan ikatan yang membelenggu lidahku</p><p>- dikatakan Nabi Musa A.S bukan seorang yang petah berkata-kata. Jadi doa ini supaya lancar perkataannya. Nabi Musa juga membawa Nabi Harun untuk menemaninya dan membantunya kerana dikatakan Nabi Harun lebih petah bercakap. Kadang-kadang kita ni pulak pandai je bercakap tapi bila berdepan dengan orang tertentu kita jadi gugup dan kelu untuk berkata-kata. </p><p>Agar mereka mengerti perkataanku</p><p>- kadang-kadang apa yang kita ucapkan tak sampai maksudnya. Lain yang kita nak sampaikan tapi lain pulak yang kita cakap dan tak sampai maksud kepada yang mendengarnya. Jadi doa ini supaya orang mudah faham apa yang kita cuba sampaikan.</p><p>Masya Allah.. apabila mendengar penerangan daripada ustazah, barulah saya lebih faham dan dapat menghayati doa ini. Doa ini bukan saja sesuai dibaca untuk menegur orang, tetapi juga untuk pergi interview, buat presentation, beri talk atau speech dalam majlis dan sebagainya. </p><p>Kemudian saya rujuk kepada Surah Taha. Masya Allah.. bila baca dalam Surah Taha tu.. kisah Nabi Musa berbicara dengan Allah SWT dan Nabi Musa baca doa ini.. lebih-lebih lagi la rasa macam fall in love with it. Subhanallah..</p><p>Moga Allah kurniakan kefahaman dan kecintaan kepada AlQuran kepada kita semua dan Allah kurniakan kekuatan kepada kita untuk beramal dengannya.</p><p>p/s - hari tu saya nak share ilmu ni dengan Humaira. Saya tanya dia, tau tak kisah di sebalik doa ni. Doa ni dibaca oleh Nabi Musa semasa nak berjumpa Firaun. Ada dalam Surah Taha. Dia kata, "Taulah. Kita dah belajar lah.." Oh ye ke.. mama je la yang baru tau ni.. hehehe... Alhamdulillah atas segala nikmatNya.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-4073485911275456862022-10-31T15:06:00.001+08:002022-10-31T15:06:17.296+08:00Kisah Khalifah Umar Al-Khattab memecat Panglima Khalid Al-Walid<p>Malam tadi, Masjid Taman Sutera telah menerima kunjungan Sahibus Samahah Dr Zulkifli Al-Bakri untuk sessi ceramah khas. Beliau ialah seorang tokoh agama yang amat disegani di negara kita, bekas Mufti Wilayah Persekutuan dan juga bekas Menteri Agama. Tajuk ceramah semalam adalah berkenaan menguruskan khilaf. Namun ada satu kisah yang sangat menarik perhatian saya. Saya pasti ianya kisah yang ramai dah tau. Cuma mungkin saya yang baru tahu dan saya tak tau kenapa tapi saya rasa terkesan dengannya.</p><p>Ianya kisah Khalifah Umar Al-Khattab memecat Panglima Khalid Al-Walid. Ketika itu, angkatan tentera Islam di bawah pimpinan Panglima Khalid Al Walid sangat cemerlang dan boleh dikatakan berada di kemuncaknya. Selalu menang dalam pertempuran. Panglima Khalid Al Walid sangat handal dan hebat. Beliau hebat dalam semua disiplin - memanah, berkuda, tombak, strategi perang... segala-galanya lah. Namun tiba-tiba beliau telah dipecat sebagai Panglima dan digantikan dengan Abdullah bin Ubaid. Tentulah umat Islam pada masa itu sangat terperanjat dengan perkara itu. Namun Khalid AlWalid telah menerima pemecatan itu dengan baik. </p><p>Kenapa Khalifah Umar AlKhatab memecat Khalid AlWalid? Adakah kerana dengki, marah atau sebagainya? Rupa-rupanya, Khalifah Umar bimbang kerana umat islam semakin mengagung-agungkan Khalid AlWalid ini. Seolah-olah setiap kemenangan adalah kerana Khalid AlWalid, tanpa Khalid AlWalid tentera islam takkan menang. Ianya seolah-olah umat islam semakin melebihkan pergantungan kepada Khalid AlWalid melebihi pergantungan kepada Allah. Atas dasar ingin menyelamatkan aqidah umat islam inilah keputusan itu telah dibuat oleh Khalifah Umar. </p><p>Masya Allah.. Saya rasa amat kagum kepada kedua-dua tokoh ini. Khalifah Umar yang bijaksana dan Khalid Al Walid yang sudah tentu tinggi ketaqwaannya. Bayangkan sekiranya ia berlaku di zaman ini dan sekiranya tidak kuat iman, sudah tentu saja yang dipecat itu akan keluar parti dan mula memburuk-burukkan pemimpin itu. Begitu hebatnya tarbiah para sahabat Rasulullah di zaman itu. Saya rasa kembang hati bila mendengar kisah ini semalam. Tak tau lah kenapa.</p><p>Semoga ada teladan daripada kisah ini. Lebih-lebih lagi nak pilihanraya ni. Kita mahu pemimpin yang memikirkan dan melindungi rakyat, bukan saja untuk kemaslahatan duniawi, malahan juga dari segi akidah dan ukhrawi. </p><p>Kekuasaan itu penting bagi umat islam. Namun matlamatnya ialah keampunan dan keredhaan Allah. Apa gunanya mendapat kuasa sekiranya ia mengundang kemurkaan Allah, maka jadilah kita orang-orang yang rugi, Na'uzubillah..</p>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-16041831500752441232022-10-26T11:08:00.001+08:002022-11-02T10:16:05.248+08:00TawakkalTiba-tiba saya teringat ketika Humaira dapat result UPU. <div><br /></div><div>Sebelum ini, Humaira belajar Asasi Sains di UiTM Dengkil. Untuk pengetahuan, hanya Asasi UiTM dan UM saja yang perlu mohon UPU untuk masuk pengajian degree. Bermaksud mereka boleh pilih mana-mana universiti awam untuk sambung degree mereka. Tak seperti program Asasi universiti lain. Contohnya Maisara Asasi di UIA, secara automatik dia akan sambung degree di UIA. Cuma ada permohonan dalaman untuk menentukan course apa yang dia akan sambung. </div><div><br /></div><div>Semasa apply dalam UPU, Humaira pilih:</div><div><br /></div><div>Pilihan 1: Veterinary di UPM</div><div>Pilihan 2: Ecology and Bio Diversity di UM</div><div>Pilihan 3: Bio Diversity di UiTM</div><div><br /></div><div>Ada lagi pilihan seterusnya tapi saya tak ingat. Melihat kepada pilihannya, tentulah kalau boleh kita nak dia jadi Doctor. Boleh la nanti panggil Dr Humaira. Boleh buka klinik sendiri. Sekarang pun ramai orang bela kucing insya allah prospek kerjaya sangat promising. Namun si empunya diri tak kisah pun. Dia kata tak kisah mana2 dalam top 3 ni sebab semua dia minat.</div><div><br /></div><div>Setiap hari saya doakan Humaira. Dalam doa saya minta Allah beri yang terbaik. Dalam hati saya mengharapkan dapat Vet. Namun saya kata dengan Allah, kalau vet itu yang terbaik maka permudahkanlah, jika sebaliknya maka Engkau yang lebih mengetahui mana yang terbaik.</div><div><br /></div><div>Usaha sudah, doa sudah, perlu tawakkal. Maksudnya apa yang dapat nanti itu lah yang terbaik sebab kita dah serahkan bulat-bulat kepadaNya. Apa yang dapat kita kena terima dengan ikhlas,</div><div><br /></div><div>Akhirnya keputusan keluar. Humaira dapat Ecology and Bio Diversity di UM. Alhamdulillah dia happy sebab dia memang tak kisah antara tiga option tu.</div><div><br /></div><div>Saya? Astaghfirullahal 'azim. Itu yang nak ceritanya tu. Di sudut hati saya agak kecewa. Result final exam Asasi dia sangat bagus.. hampir four flat, masa interview pun berdasarkan apa yang Humaira cerita dia boleh jawab. Kenapa tak dapat first choice? Rupanya saya yang kurang bertawakal. Ya Allah tiap2 hari saya dah doa minta Allah beri yang terbaik, tapi rupanya hati saya tidak ikhlas untuk menyerahkan urusan ini kepada Allah. </div><div><br /></div><div>Astaghfirullahal 'azim..</div><div>Moga Allah ampunkan saya..</div>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-73343060015765266172022-10-25T12:24:00.001+08:002022-11-07T17:44:03.041+08:00Bila nak sambung My Blepharospasm Journey?Oh i need to continue my series of My Blepharospasm Journey. But I was just taken over by kemalasan... hehe. <div><br /></div><div>This Friday will be my 4th injection. During my previous consultation with Prof Goh, he said he want to try adding more injection points above my eyebrows. Let's pray that it works. I desperately need it to work because my convocation is coming next month. Otherwise, i might need to apply for special needs student so that i will not stumble on the stage.. hehe..</div>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-71556304879560687942022-10-25T12:14:00.001+08:002022-10-25T12:14:49.282+08:00Covid-19 for the 2nd time<p>Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal...</p><p>Today is the last day of my 7 days quarantine. But actually I already tested negative on my 5th day alhamdulillah. But then again, there is no difference if I quarantined until how many days because I am not going anywhere hehe..</p><p>Anyway, i was quite devastated during first few days. Not because I had quite a bad sore throat, but because my kids cannot come home during Deepavali holidays.. huhuhu... I was so looking forward to it, 5 days of schools holidays... huhuhu.. Raihana need to stay at nenek's house. While Mai and Maili just stay put in their college. Mai has joined a program organized by UIA so it is not so boring for her. Furthermore, her roommates are also not going back. While Humaira she said she only 'mereput' sorang-sorang dalam bilik because all the roommates had gone back to their hometown. So yesterday Ayah spent some time with her eating Mahbub after he went to office to get some stuff,</p><p>How does it feel? Did I feel any difference from the first time i had this virus? Frankly speaking, i already forgot how it feels the first time. I had it in Feb 2021. What i remember is that during that qtime I was so busy with assignment and presentations that i just endured the fever, body ache, sore throat and cough to get my work done. I even stayed up until late and act tough in front of everybody eventhough my mind told me to get rest. But then again, during that time, we did not know that I had Covid.</p><p>This time around, it was my husband first to get the virus from office. A few of his teammates are also down with Covid. I was tested positive when my husband was in Day 5. My fever was quite mild. But the sore throat is killing me. Only after 4th day my sore throat was getting better, but replaced by cough. Until today, i still cough a lot. But getting better insya allah.</p><p>This time around, we are not so afraid of the virus anymore. I tend to my husband during first few days because he had quite a high fever. And maybe that is why I got infected too. We do not quarantined in the bedroom. While imran is the one who is always staying in his room, as usual. Alhamdulillah so far Imran is ok. </p><p>Nowadays, we treat covid like normal fever and flu. Alhamdulillah vaccine do works, with Allah's will.</p>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-6127030990516548572022-05-26T18:13:00.005+08:002022-11-07T17:42:58.696+08:00My Blepharospasm Journey 2: Hemifacial SpasmApabila keadaan semakin meruncing, saya mengajak suami untuk berjumpa lagi dengan Dr Faizal untuk mencari kepastian tentang keadaan saya ini. Dr Faizal membuka semula fail MRI saya. Dr Faizal kata ada salur darah yang tersentuh pada saraf muka saya. Bila salur darah pulsating, saraf akan triggered dan menyebabkan involuntary twitching pada bahagian mata. Jadi kemungkinan inilah yang menyebabkan mata kiri saya rasa macam nak tertutup saja. <div><br /></div><div>"What you have here is potentially a Hemifacial spasm."<br /><div><br /></div><div>" Jadi macamana nak baikkan ni, doktor?"</div><div><br /></div><div>"Boleh try makan ubat. Tapi ada satu lagi cara yang lebih effective ialah kita buat minor surgery. Simple saja prosidurnya"</div><div><br /></div><div>Beliau lalu mengeluarkan model kepala manusia.</div><div><br /></div><div>"Kita tebuk sikit kat belakang telinga ni. Lepas tu kita akan masukkan teflon untuk pisahkan blood vessel daripada saraf tadi. Supaya nanti bila salur darah tu berdenyut atau mengembang menguncup, dia takkan terkena salur darah yang menyebabkan twitching pada mata kiri. Awak stay hospital 2 hari untuk prosedur ni, then saya bagi MC 2 minggu"</div><div><br /></div><div>"Saya bagi dulu ubat, tengok macamana. Awak cuba google Hemifacial Spasm. Cuba tengok sama tak dengan apa yang awak alami ni. Procedure yang saya cerita tadi namanya Micro Vascular Decompression (MVD). Cuba study dulu these two things. Apa-apa keputusan terserah kepada awa sebab awak yang menanggung sakitnya."</div><div><br /></div><div>Seminggu selepas perjumpaan dengan Dr Faizal tu saya telah buat keputusan untuk meneruskan dengan prosedur MVD. Kerana makan ubat tak jalan. Sebab saya semakin stress tak boleh buat kerja. Sebab saya kalau boleh nak settlekan masalah ni sementara saya baru nak start kerja baru, sebelum saya betul2 masuk gear. Sebab sementara anak-anak semua ada kat rumah, lepas surgery ada la ramai kat rumah boleh tolong jaga saya.</div><div><br /></div><div>Pada tarikh 26 Jun 2021, saya telah ditolak masuk ke operation theatre. My first ever experience. Prosedur berjalan lancar alhamdulillah. Tapi bila sedar, telinga kiri saya tak dengar. Bila saya buka mata pulak, semua benda berpusing. Saya mengalami vertigo yang teruk. Ada beberapa kali juga saya muntah. </div><div><br /></div><div>Sehingga hari ini, saya masih trauma apabila teringat keadaan post-surgery saya masa tu. Tobat la saya... huhu...Awal-awal tu memang saya tak boleh buka mata sebab pening yang amat. Saya tak boleh berdiri/berjalan sebab pening dan tak balance. Telinga kiri pulak tak dengar. Akhirnya daripada sepatutnya 2 minggu MC, saya telah mengambil masa lebih kurang sebulan setengah untuk recover vertigo saya dan boleh berjalan semula tanpa bantuan. Pendengaran saya pula alhamdulillah bertambah baik tapi tak pulih 100% sampai sekarang. Dr kata mungkin ada tersentuh saraf pendengaran sebab saraf tu memang dekat-dekat. </div><div><br /></div><div>Mata saya pulak....</div></div>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-62021729853015398702022-04-11T09:44:00.002+08:002022-04-11T09:44:39.816+08:00Write To Share: Bengkel Seni Peluahan Dalam Penulisan<p><span style="color: #050505;"><span style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;">Sabot</span></span><span style="color: #050505;"> <span style="font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;">lepas,</span><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"> saya telah berkesempatan untuk mengikuti Bengkel Seni Peluahan Dalam Penulisan oleh Bonda Nor. Bengkel secara online. Seni peluahan ni ada 3 kategori:</span></span></span></p><div class="cxmmr5t8 oygrvhab hcukyx3x c1et5uql o9v6fnle ii04i59q" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; white-space: pre-wrap; word-wrap: break-word;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">1. Write to remind</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">2. Write to heal</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">3. Write to share </div></div><div class="cxmmr5t8 oygrvhab hcukyx3x c1et5uql o9v6fnle ii04i59q" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; white-space: pre-wrap; word-wrap: break-word;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Write to remind adalah luahan yang kita tulis untuk peringatan, bukan saja untuk orang yang membacanya malah selalunya lebih kepada untuk diri sendiri. Contohnya kata-kata nasihat dan semangat.</div></div><div class="cxmmr5t8 oygrvhab hcukyx3x c1et5uql o9v6fnle ii04i59q" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; white-space: pre-wrap; word-wrap: break-word;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Write to heal pula adalah kata-kata untuk melepaskan apa yang terbuku dalam dada kita. Yang apabila kita luahkan tu kita akan rasa puas dan lega. Bukan rasa geram atau marah saja, rasa happy pun kita rasa nak tulis juga kan. Kadang-kadang tulisan tu cuma apa yg kita buat atau kita rasa dalam aktiviti seharian kita. It is like a diary. Namun kena ingat adab-adab menulis. Mungkin dalam kategori ini kita perlu berhati-hati sama ada tulisan kita itu sesuai untuk dikongsi di media sosial ataupun hanya untuk tatapan kita saja. </div></div><div class="cxmmr5t8 oygrvhab hcukyx3x c1et5uql o9v6fnle ii04i59q" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; white-space: pre-wrap; word-wrap: break-word;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Write to share pula adalah apa-apa saja yang kita rasa nak kongsi. Contohnya kita share resepi masakan, ilmu yang kita dapat daripada kuliah Ramadhan, pengalaman kita sebagai ibu, anak, pelajar, pekerja dan sebagainya. Perkongsian kita itu biarlah bermanfaat, yang mungkin boleh buatkan orang tersenyum gembira, menambah ilmu di dada ataupun meninggalkan kesan positif kepada pembacanya.</div></div><div class="cxmmr5t8 oygrvhab hcukyx3x c1et5uql o9v6fnle ii04i59q" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; white-space: pre-wrap; word-wrap: break-word;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Menulis boleh jadi ladang pahala dan juga ladang dosa. Malah boleh jadi ladang rezeki juga! Kitalah yang perlu pilih dan mencorakkannya, Insya Allah.</div></div><div class="cxmmr5t8 oygrvhab hcukyx3x c1et5uql o9v6fnle ii04i59q" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; white-space: pre-wrap; word-wrap: break-word;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Di akhir sessi, Bonda Nor telah memberikan tugasan untuk pilih salah satu kategori peluahan dan tulis satu posting di Facebook.</div></div><div class="cxmmr5t8 oygrvhab hcukyx3x c1et5uql o9v6fnle ii04i59q" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; white-space: pre-wrap; word-wrap: break-word;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Maka, dah siaplah tugasan saya, yeayy!!</div></div><div class="cxmmr5t8 oygrvhab hcukyx3x c1et5uql o9v6fnle ii04i59q" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; white-space: pre-wrap; word-wrap: break-word;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Alhamdulillah.. <span class="pq6dq46d tbxw36s4 knj5qynh kvgmc6g5 ditlmg2l oygrvhab nvdbi5me sf5mxxl7 gl3lb2sf hhz5lgdu" style="display: inline-flex; font-family: inherit; height: 16px; margin: 0px 1px; vertical-align: middle; width: 16px;"><img alt="😊" height="16" referrerpolicy="origin-when-cross-origin" src="https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/images/emoji.php/v9/t1e/2/16/1f60a.png" style="border: 0px;" width="16" /></span></div></div><div class="cxmmr5t8 oygrvhab hcukyx3x c1et5uql o9v6fnle ii04i59q" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; white-space: pre-wrap; word-wrap: break-word;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">#BengkelSeniPeluahanDalamPenulisan</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">#WriteToShare</div></div>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-42144500213954518112022-04-11T09:27:00.001+08:002022-04-11T09:27:53.963+08:00Melankoli<p>Berdiri depan cermin..</p><p>Berbedak bergincu bagai..</p><p>Rambut disisir rapi..</p><p>Tapi tak nampak..</p><p>LEMAH!!</p>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-12205193155087006522022-04-01T22:11:00.006+08:002022-04-01T22:11:38.050+08:00My New MacBook Air<p>I am writing from my new MacBook Air.. yuhooo....</p><p>My previous laptop is Microsoft Surface. I think I have been using it for more than 5 years. Around 7 years, I think. It started to act weird recently. It became very slow, sometimes it just stopped working and I even get sudden blue screen.</p><p>At first I wanted to continue my loyalty to Surface. I have been surveying the latest Microsoft Surface Pro 8. But my husband really really insist me on getting this MacBook Air. He has been alluring me to change to MacBook many times but I just don't want to trouble myself with iOS thingy. Furthermore, I have quite a number of software for my Master study which might have trouble working on iOS platform such as Anaconda. That's what I heard.</p><p>But in the end, I resorted to my husband's continuous nagging.. hehe.. But alhamdulillah, so far I do not regret it. 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I don't know if it's related but that is how my problem started. I had frequent headache. It happened maybe once a month. Usually it was triggered when I missed my afternoon nap or I missed my 10am tea break. When my headache happened, it was only on the left side. And the headache made my left eyelid felt heavy. Sometimes I just couldn't open my left eye. It felt like something was sitting above my left eyelid. And usually I would felt nausea. Mabuk. Ini yg paling tak tahan sebab bila rasa mabuk tu yang tak boleh buat kerja tu. But all these would go away if I sleep. And this has been going on for 10 years... opss... Yeah, I just managed :)</p><p>Until Covid came knocking at my door..</p><p><b>The Covid-19</b></p><p>I had Covid in February 2021 when there were no vaccine yet. My symptom was mild alhamdulillah. I thought it was a normal fever because I did not have any close contact to any Covid patient. We were strictly at home during MCO at that time. Merasa la duduk di MAEPS seminggu. My husband who was also positive did not have to go to MAEPS because he has no symptom during our checkup at CAC. The kids were all negative alhamdulillah. So they were the ones who took care of dad during that trying times, with humaira and maisara were just a few weeks before SPM. Kesian diorang. 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And when it happened, one night of sleep was not enough to make it go away like before. Sometimes it prolonged until 2 days. I thought it might be also caused by too much screen time and too much work. We were working from home with endless meetings, slides, presentations, etc. I was involved with 2 big projects (Stellar, SNI) which requires me to work a lot with documentations - process simplification, business requirement gatherings. I was also in my 3rd semester of my master study. So with all those assignments, projects, work tasks, slides, etc, I might have overworked myself a bit, now that I looked back. And the headache came unpredicted unlike before. It was not because of lack of food or lack of sleep. It just came whenever it wanted. Managing my headache was getting more challenging.</p><p><b>Occipital Neuralgia</b></p><p>When it becomes more frequent and more unbearable, I set an appointment with Dr Nor Faizal, a neurosurgeon in UMSC. Why neurosurgeon? Actually he is my husband's friend. So it was easy to get his advice even prior to our meeting with him. I had MRI in March. Alhamdulillah there were no abnormalities such as tumor or anything else. After further physical examination, I was diagnosed with Occipital Neuralgia. </p><p><span face="arial, sans-serif" style="background-color: white; color: #202124;"><i><span style="font-size: x-small;">Occipital neuralgia is a distinct type of headache characterized by piercing, throbbing, or electric-shock-like chronic pain in the upper neck, back of the head, and behind the ears, usually on one side of the head. Typically, the pain of occipital neuralgia begins in the neck and then spreads upwards. (definition by </span></i></span><i><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span face=""Source Sans Pro", sans-serif" style="background-color: white; color: #444444;"><a href="https://www.ninds.nih.gov/Disorders/All-Disorders/Occipital-Neuralgia-Information-Page#:~:text=Occipital%20neuralgia%20is%20a%20distinct,neck%20and%20then%20spreads%20upwards.">The National Institute of Neurological Disorders and Stroke (NINDS)</a></span><span face="arial, sans-serif" style="background-color: white; color: #202124;">)</span></span></i></p><p>I was prescribed with Cereblex, a type of pain killer. But it did not help my headache. After further consultation, I decided to get the nerve block injection. It was a very quick procedure. I was injected at the back of my head. The medicine was injected directly into my occipital nerve at two spots. I was dizzy for a few minutes, but that was all. I was on MC for 4 days if I am not mistaken. Yeah my head was kind of feeling numb and funny for a few days. Macam sengal-sengal gitu. Alhamdulillah after that, my condition has improved a lot. The headache has gone. </p><p><b>The Dengue Fever</b></p><p>It was Ramadhan. Suddenly I felt that I am having fever. It lasted for 4 -5 days. Oh no.. it can't be Covid again. After blood test, it was confirmed that I had dengue. I was admitted in Columbia Asia Hospital for 5 days. My mom said "Kok ada je ko ni. Hari tu baru kena covid, ni denggi pulak". "Habis tu macamana mak, mana iza tau" Well, my mom wasn't saying that because she was angry but because she pitied me.</p><p>To make things worse, I was actually just being promoted to a new post in a new division. I had to postpone reporting duty to the new supervisor as I was on long MC. Bad first impression huh.</p><p><b>Heavy Left Eye</b></p><p>Not long after I recovered from dengue, a new problem started which was my left eyes. Remember when I said that when I had headache, my left eyes would felt heavy. Yes it happened again but this time it was without the headache. During this time, my overall health was not very good too. I think my body still not fit after covid and then dengue. My weight was just at 43 kg (my normal weight is 48kg). I lost my appetite. I always felt macam nak demam, badan dedar2 and sometimes palpitation. Selalu rasa kebas-kebas badan/bahu. Senang kena cramp kat kaki, tangan, kadang kat jari pun boleh cramp. Sometimes I felt irregular heartbeat sampai buat checkup dengan cardiologist. But my heart was fine.</p><p>My condition get worse day by day especially the eyes. After some time, it was not just the eyelid, but I felt burning sensation at the back of my eyes and around the left side of my head. I really struggling with works and my study because of this. During work, I need to hold my left eyes open to look at the computer. Whenever I had chance, I would lie down and close my eyes praying that it will go away. My work was very slow. There are a lot of things that I cannot do as productive and effective as before. Just imagine what my new boss would think of me. huhu.. I was really in stress mode. </p><p>Is it because of long covid? nerve problem? immune system problem? </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-8920238668195776142021-12-15T21:42:00.003+08:002022-11-07T17:43:28.187+08:00Blepharospasm<p> So, it is blepharospasm.</p><p>After a series of consultations from neurosurgeons, neurologist, ophthalmologist, neuro-ophthalmologist, movement disorder specialist, from UMSC, HKL, HUKM and Unisza Hospital (if we includes online consultations), it is agreed that the problem that I am having with my eyes is called Blepharospasm.</p><p>You might notice that I am always with my eye shades on lately. I have difficulty to open my eyes, I cannot lift my eyelids. My eyes can only open about 5-10 percent. So most of the time I just look down. If I want to look to the front, I need to 'mendongak', or force open my eyes using my fingers. (Yup, suddenly you might imagine how Mr Bean using matchstick to keep his eyes open :) )</p><p>Ujian Allah datang dalam bermacam-macam bentuk untuk melihat sejauh mana kita sabar dan redha. Ya Allah, banyaknya pengajaran dan kesedaran yang saya dapat melalui ujian ini. Subhanallah, setiap kudrat kita walau sekecil mana, walau hanya untuk mengangkat kelopak mata adalah dengan izin Allah. Rupa-rupanya kita ini sangat lemah. Ya Allah.. Masya allah saya sangat bersyukur walaupun ujian ini telah merubah kehidupan saya namun saya sangat-sangat bersyukur kerana Allah masih izinkan saya untuk melihat.. walaupun dengan kepayahan. Ya Allah.. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah... Walaupun saya bagaikan OKU, nak berjalan pun kena pegang tangan orang, namun badan saya sihat, makan saya berselera, tidur saya lena.. ya allah.. masya allah... subhanallah.. alhamdulillah... banyaknya lagi nikmat yg Allah beri yang mungkin adakalanya saya terlupa untuk mensyukurinya.</p><p>Benar bagai di kata. Dalam ujian ada nikmat. Betapa banyak nikmat yang saya terima dan yg saya baru sadari, Subhanallah.. ianya satu pengalaman hidup dan satu turning point yang saya amat2 syukuri. </p><p>Subhanallah.. Alhamdulilah... Allahu Akbar..</p><p>Ah.. cerita ini sebenarnya sangat panjang.. Nantilah saya nukilkan di lain masa insya allah..</p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhNOXoY_y7UwO4xJ8WIr6TWEKoJkgiPILo7ZM4vYVggNI1ivjFBWFjumv8u9vZTMwm4GBk1TQZwAtxYWJesMxq-Ko_AHrGfIXM5SoYnX10DG-OC5dgI1ULtHE4sW7CGl_r7xH04/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1424" data-original-width="1068" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhNOXoY_y7UwO4xJ8WIr6TWEKoJkgiPILo7ZM4vYVggNI1ivjFBWFjumv8u9vZTMwm4GBk1TQZwAtxYWJesMxq-Ko_AHrGfIXM5SoYnX10DG-OC5dgI1ULtHE4sW7CGl_r7xH04/" width="180" /></a></div><br /><br /><p></p>mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9748377.post-16791214005129053732021-09-18T15:32:00.001+08:002021-09-18T15:32:33.462+08:00'Lays' your memoriesIt warms my heart..<div>When your old friend still remembers what you like to eat 20 years ago. 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Sejak minggu lepas, FT kata dia akan keluar album baru. ALBUM TERAKHIR dia kata. ROJAK nama album yang terakhir ni. Walaupun actually dia kumpulkan lagu-lagu single dia sebelum ni, cuma ada beberapa la lagu baru, tapi dalam box tu ada macam-macam merchandise - keychain, stickers, phone punya apa tu yang lekat kat belakang phone tu (oh phone grips namanya), then ada polaroid photo with his autograph and a postcard from him. Whoaaa.... memang plan nak beli la. Comel2 pulak tu..Akan start jual secara online pada 2 August, which is today.<br />
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Malam tadi (belum pukul 12 pun) ada perasan message kat FT punya FB diorang dah dapat beli dah. So cepat2 masuk kat link tu. Tengok harga album RM129.. Alamak!! Terus berkira-kira...nak beli ke tak.. nak beli ke tak... Hadoii.. ikut nafsu nak beli... ikut akal, takde keperluan pun... ikut hati??<br />
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Saya tutup dulu.<br />
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Pagi tadi nak tunjuk kat Raihana... saja la nak sembang.. Tapi tengok-tengok dah SOLD OUT? Aduhh....<br />
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So now I am regretting it... huhuhuhu....<br />
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Ah, macam ni lah.. terpaksa mama meroyan kat sini. Dah takde Aqil nak layan mama cerita pasal lagu baru, album baru, video klip baru... huhuhu... Hanya playlist Aqil dalam iTune jadi peneman mama dalam kereta. Hari tu ada lagu baru Bikers Kental. Aqil mesti suka tu sebab gandingan FT dengan Akim. Dua-dua memang Aqil minat. Cuma Shamsul Yusuf belum ada lagu baru lagi dengan Mawi. Itu pun favourite Aqil juga.<br />
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Aqil nyanyi lagu Suriram:<br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Rupa-rupanya tahun ini memang tahun kehilangan. Bermula dengan Aqil, kemudian K Idah. Baru-baru ini, kami kehilangan Chiko pula. Betul-betul pada hari tarikh lahir Aqil Aqlan, 9th July. Sedih.. tentulah sedih..</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Akhir-akhir ini, saya selalu rasa macam nak menangis. Kadang-kadang teringat sesuatu lalu tanpa disedari air mata mengalir.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Saya rindu membaca buku bersama Aqil. Saya rindu menyanyi lagu Faizal Tahir dengan Aqil. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Aqil, selain suka tengok Youtube, dia suka baca buku komik Boboiboy. Kami akan baca sama-sama. Kami akan berganti-ganti baca dialog. Saya memang suka baca buku dengan anak-anak. Lebih kepada bercerita sebenarnya. Tak ikut pun dialog dalam buku tu. Sambil tu boleh berlakon buat suara macam-macam. Banyak buku Aqil saya dah bagi-bagi kepada sepupu Aqil tapi ada beberapa buku favourite Aqil yang saya simpan. Namun baru-baru ini saya bagi juga buku2 tu kepada sepupunya. Saya fikir-fikir balik, lebih baik ianya memberi manfaat kepada orang lain pula. Biarlah kenangan itu tersimpan di dalam hati. Buku-buku yang best dan selalu kami baca bersama - Harry and a Bucket Full of Dinosaur, Megaboy, Goldilocks and the Three Bears, Red Riding Hood, Hensel & Gretel, Big Book of Words, Pin Pin.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I miss having small kids to make my life in chaos. Tapi saya sedar, anak-anak tetap akan membesar. Kalau Aqil Aqlan masih ada pun mereka tetap akan membesar juga.</span><br />
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Alhamdulillah.. sedikit sebanyak persiapan dah dibuat. Bayaran pakej dah selesai. Barang-barang nak beli dah selesai rasanya. Hari tu beli di kedai berdekatan Warta Bangi. Tapi saya rasa telekung mini yang saya beli tu macam jarang sikit la. Tapi boleh je pakai, kat dalam nanti pakai la tudung juga. Cuma rasa menyesal pulak beli yang tu huhu. Tapi dah beli so guna je lah. Sebenarnya sepatutnya tak perlu beli pun. Pakai je lah telekung/tudung yang dah ada. Tapi terpengaruh dengan trend semasa hehe. Apa taknya, asyik melintas je kat FB telekung umrah ni. Huhu.. Astaghfirullahal azim...<br />
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Kena ulangkaji bab ibadah umrah. Hari tu ejen dah buat kelas yang pertama. Nanti insya allah akan ada satu lagi. Senang ejen depan rumah hehe. Sambil-sambil tu kami tengok ceramah-ceramah pasal umrah kat dalam youtube. Saya juga ada beli satu buku - Diari Umrah Pertamaku, untuk nak tau pengalaman orang yang buat umrah. Alhamdulillah saya rasa ada banyak tips2 yang dikongsi oleh penulis yang boleh saya jadikan panduan.<br />
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Anak-anak tak ikut. Ini kali pertama untuk saya, dan kedua untuk suami, jadi biarlah kami je yang pergi dulu. Lagipun kalau nak bawa semua banyak pula belanjanya. Insya allah kalau ada rezeki lagi di masa hadapan, boleh la kita pergi sekeluarga.<br />
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Nanti Raihana akan duduk di rumah Pak Su. Nasib baik la rumah Pak Su kat jalan belakang je. Jadi bas sekolah pun tinggal nak bagitau ambik Raihana kat belakang lah. Humaira, Maisara dan Imran untuk weekend pertama akan stay kat sekolah. Weekend kedua tumpang rumah Chuyah. Alhamdulillah ada adik beradik yang dekat yang boleh tolong. Luqman pulak takde masalah, stay je la kat asrama tu. Semoga Allah permudahkan urusan anak-anak kami semua dan pakcik makcik dan cikgu2 yang tolong jaga anak-anak kami selama 2 minggu kami tiada nanti.<br />
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Excited.. Nervous.. Counting days...mamasherryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04397578113161384945noreply@blogger.com0